Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Meow yourself to the car

Well shit.
That's about all I can even say anymore. I totally keep fucking stuff up and I have no hope of anyone loving me. So, shit. What am I supposed to do? I've been totally ruined by the people around me. In just the past year, I've lost so much confidence, lost so many friends, so much self worth... People just act shitty to me. It doesn't help either that people don't even bother with me unless they want something from me. And even then, they're jackasses about it.
I'm at my wit's end trying to please people. Especially men because it just really isn't worth it. They all treat me just as something to fuck. And it's irritating. I mean, I know I shouldn't be so easy, but I really am respectable but obviously, I'm wrong about that. And it's not even that whoever had their cock in my last is mean to me. But I only exist when their cock is in me. That's pretty degrading. Even guys I don't know just ignore me. I mean, I get no acknowledgment from anyone. And why the fuck? I'm not ugly. I'm pleasant to everyone. I don't know. I;m just not ever going to be good enough for anyone. I knew when I fucked it up with Chris that that was the end.
I'm crying now. Fuck this.

"they took away the tiger and left a
pussycat
as you meow yourself to your car and
get the fuck out of
there."